Posing

Thanks to all of you for your encouraging words from my last post. It's good to know there are others out there who struggle with this issue. I guess I never understood before since the last time it only took us 1 month to get pregnant with Nathan. Maybe God is trying to humble me. In any case, I think God is trying to teach me something because there's a new couple at church who just joined 3 months ago and announced this week they're 12 weeks pregnant with their second (they too have a son who's only a week younger than Nathan). It was really hard for me to not be jealous and envious of them and to see everybody happy for them. What made it difficult was some people turned to me and asked when it was our turn. It took a lot of strength for me to not get angry and feel like I need to "step up" our game and hurry up to get pregnant to make these people happy. I realized I can't try and get pregnant to make these people happy as that moment will only be a fleeting moment. I'm still praying and accepting God's timing in all this. So, thanks to everyone for your continued support and prayers.

So, here's some pics of my boy posing for the camera @ Plymouth Meeting Mall. I don't know how Dan got him to pose like this. Doesn't his smile look forced?!! You can tell he's saying the word "Cheese!" I can't believe he's going to be 3 in 2 weeks.

Still...

not pregnant. It's been 4 months now and I'm about ready to break down. What makes it more difficult is that certain people at church constantly ask me each month if I'm pregnant....for crying out loud, if I'm pregnant I'll let everybody know as soon as I find out! You can tell that these people are "fertile myrtles" as they have no idea what it's like to struggle with this issue. It must be nice to be able to plan your pregnancy whenever you want to have your baby. Those people in church who struggled up to a year to get pregnant (or were never able to have children) are more sensitive and know not to ask me every week. I've been trying to relax and not think about it, but I don't know how to do this. It really doesn't help when people constantly ask me....I almost feel like I'm trying to get pregnant to please these people. For some reason God isn't allowing this to happen and I'm having a hard time accepting this. Sorry this post was pretty negative and a downer, but I need prayers: to help me to relax, not dwell on this issue and to not get upset everytime people ask me. If His plan is for me to not have children again, I need to accept this as well. Dan said to not go to that extreme as it's only been 4 months, but I feel like I need to be prepared for the worst case scenario.

Winnie the Pooh

Belated Halloween pics. This was Nathan's first time trick or treating in our neighborhood...one of our church members gave us her son's costume since her children are grown up. He loved it and wanted to go trick or treating again the next day.

Went to the mall first and not many stores were giving out candy. So after 10 minutes, we went back to our neighborhood.



Daddy is trying to steal Nathan's candy!

I think Daddy enjoyed trick or treating more than Nathan as he's eating most of the candy!

Candy heaven!

Big Bed!

Nathan is finally moved to the big bed! We've had an adult twin bed in his room since he was born (it was actually my bed I've had since high school). I was afraid of moving him there since he moves around so much at night. We would hear his head banging around in the crib and he fell off the bed every night when we were in the Bahamas. So we bought bed railings to attach to my bed, but one night last week when I checked on him before I went to bed, he managed to climb out of his crib in the dark and was sleeping in the big bed! Every night he wants to sleep in the "big bed" without a fuss. Amazingly he hasn't fallen out of the bed once in the past week. If this keeps up for the next few weeks, we're going to return the railings since he obviously doesn't need it. So glad this is one battle we didn't have to fight....now if we can only get him potty trained (I would ask him if he wants to poop in the potty and he says, "No, poop in diaper")! Just goes to show that in all these milestones we need to wait until they're ready.